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[esper_child]

[The video shows Terra, from slightly more than the neck up, sitting on what's probably a couch in her home. She seems... puzzled, a bit.]

I don't know if I've ever had a time in my life to just... be me. I don't have many memories, but the ones I have have all been about fighting and conflict and people wanting to use me. I'm not sure I know how to relax.

It's been... strange, not having to fight. Not having to worry that the Empire is one step behind me, ready to make me their slave again.

But I have been a slave. I've had my thoughts, my memories, all stripped from me. Been made to do... terrible things. And I recognize a cage when I see one. This one is gilded, yes, but it is still a cage.

How are you all coping with this place? I don't... I don't know what to do with myself.

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[Video]

[forgotten_vows]

[Victor nods, sighing.]

Yes, I did. It -- it took a while, and I eventually had to mentally fight what was keeping them locked up, but -- I did.

[He gives her a weak smile.]

So it's not impossible for you to get yours back.

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[esper_child]

[He gets a weak smile in return.]

I hope that I do. I know I was made to do some terrible things... but I also have no memory of if I have a family or anyone who looked for me while I was being used.

I would take those bad memories to find out more about who I am.

[Video]

[forgotten_vows]

I hope you do too. Even bad memories have value -- they help define who you are. The time when I was an almost total amnesiac was one of the w-worst of my life. Especially when I could almost remember something, but not quite. . .

[He shakes his head.]

If it feels like a wall in your mind, I can recommend trying to smash a hole in it with something heavy. That's what I ended up doing -- with a little help from my best friend.

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[esper_child]

That sounds like a good idea. Some of my friends had recommended just waiting for my memories to come back... but I don't know if I've ever really been happy with that suggestion.

[Video]

[forgotten_vows]

I didn't want to wait either. I'd had a week of my life stolen for the most vile of purposes, and -- and I wanted to be me again.

[He bites his lip.]

It sounds like you suffered for even longer, so. . .yes, I can understand why just waiting would be frustrating.

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[esper_child]

[Nearly all her life, really...]

[A small nod.]

It is.

But thank you, Victor, you said it was? Thank you, for your kind words. I'm Terra.

[Video]

[forgotten_vows]

You're welcome. Yes, it's Victor -- it's good to meet you, Terra.

I hope you can figure out what to do with yourself soon. I'm still trying to figure that out too, honestly.